I was looking at a chalice the other day, after
dinner at my sister’s home. On the bottom the inscription read, “Rev. James J.
Grogan, Ordained May 29, 1943.” Just a bit surreal, my brother offered me the
use of this chalice that he has used over the more than thirty years of his
priesthood; Bill has been fortunate to have the use of two chalices, each
having belonged to our Uncles Tom and Jim, who together served as priests in
the Philadelphia Archdiocese for 72 years before their deaths some decades
ago. As my brother pointed out, it might
only need to have a new ordination date inscribed a few years from now, as the
name is the same.
Of course, I knew Bill had these chalices, as with
our uncles he has contributed his own 30 years as a priest on this anniversary
year; between the three of them, more than a century of service as priests can
be counted. What surprised me was the
impact of reading my name on that base, and especially considering the wear on
the chalice. The last ministerial act my Uncle Jim performed was blessing the ring
I had just given to my fiancée in 1981 from his hospital bed, as he passed
to his eternal reward two weeks after our engagement. The chalice, once gold
plated, is now very much two-tone, with areas where the plating has been worn
off revealing the silver coloring of the base metal. This wear has pre-occupied
me for the past week, as I consider the work of priests, sharing the cup
around the altar and offering it to those sharing in the Eucharist. Perhaps in my Uncle’s time, this cup was more
likely reserved only for priests, but in my brother’s hands, it has been shared
by priests and laity, with parishioners at daily mass and couples on their
wedding days. All those hundreds or
thousands of people have contributed to the “silver lining” of ministry that I
am now allowed to view.
During this same week, I joined in a celebration of
ministry for a wonderful woman, Sister Marcy Springer, a Sister of Saint Joseph
for fifty years. Guiding many, including me, as a spiritual director, Sister
Marcy is a woman of prayer, just as my uncles and brother have been for
decades. As I pursue the discernment of my own vocation to the priesthood, each
of these faithful servants stand as models and reminders to me that this
journey is first and foremost a prayerful experience, a prayerful experience
that hopefully draws me ever closer to Jesus in the Eucharist. I was offered a
second chalice a few years ago, a gift from my parish in memory of Ellie, who
they loved nearly as much as I have.
That chalice, too, shows some signs of wear; used in our parish everyday
liturgies for a few years, it shows some scratches. In these vessels – both the
cups and our human existence – we have some scratches, some marks of suffering,
of use, and of joy to be found in the silver lining of life. They are symbols
of the faith we share, and of the prayers we offer in communion with one
another. Please keep me and all our
seminarians in your prayers, especially our newest seven transitional deacons in
Trenton as they join the legacy of sacramental service to and with the People
of God.
I'm right there with you, bro. Apparently you've had a busy morning. I, too, have been struck with wonder by the evidence of the wear on the two cups. Strange, isn't it, that even though they're worn, they're not worn out. Even with all the visible and invisible marks and scars etc., they seem as beautiful as ever. I'd like to think that continuing to put them to good, holy use makes them (and us, maybe?) even more beautiful as we age.
ReplyDeleteYou notice, of course, how we become the sacrament we celebrate.
Bill